Growing up Catholic was not exactly a completely satisfying experience for me. But, for some reason, I always looked forward to going to mass and, even though we did the same thing at mass each week, I did not know really what I was doing there. I actually liked going to the church, I simply was not sure that God liked having me in His church at the time. Strangely, though, after leaving the mass I felt oddly satisfied; like I had accomplished something good. It seemed right. Now I had heard about Catholics that went to church every day–that did not seem like a good idea for me. The question that I did not take too much time to ask as a twelve-year-old and answer was: Why did I feel good while in church? Why was this satisfying?
This answer came much later when I was reading through the Book of Lamentations. I know, you have to be born again to make it that far in the Old Testament, right? When Jeremiah wrote this letter in 586 BC, he was not thinking of me, but it sure has had an impact on my life. Look at this passage in chapter 3 verses 19-24:
Remember my affliction and my wanderings, the wormwood and the gall! My soul continually remembers it and is bowed down within me. But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope. The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in Him.”
John Piper says, “Lord You are most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in You.” Ah, then it hit me. All that time, sitting in that wooden pew, wondering (king of) why I was so content. It was so simple–I wanted to know God and I wanted to be known by God. And I was in a place where some people actually did that. Of course it is not the building or any setting, really. It’s Him! He really is enough! So when you don’t have enough money—GOD. How about if you are along for a time (maybe a really long time?—GOD. Oh yes, but what if you are in pain, have been emotionally hurt by others and wronged–I mean REALLY wronged!? What then?–I say GOD, GOD and GOD. He is enough for you and He wants to be your loving spoonful in the morning, your mid-morning snack, your lunch, your dinner and your late-night take out. Test Him. Spend time with the LORD and see what He does in your life. If you’re like me the only question that you will ask will be, “Where do I get some more?”